Saturday, February 11, 2006
{ 3:57 AM }
i deleted the previous post. i think i'm like talking rubbish. hahaas. yesterday dont have english lesson. so funny. those people in front, sam and charissa they all were like mouthing some songs while we were like singing for them. so funny. they did titanic and wu ding, and i was the pei4 yin1. i sing until so full of feelings, then they act until so comical. then it was like so weird and the whole class was all quiet and listening cum watching at what was happening. then there was once mr goh came in. sam and charissa were still acting. and the class was dead quiet. and they continued until he spoke. hahaas. but i liked the last period most(: can continue doing it some day. something i feared most happened to me. haiz..i just hope people dont think the wrong way. we had to go for the o levels, so np started at 4. we fall in, then had a lot of checks. and we made nco pump. i think we were a bit bad aint we..and we were like laughing when they pumped lor..we had welcome party which seemed fun, but not fun at all. played only one pathetic game. and the game made me so scared. i hate the balloons bursting..and the sound. it all made me shiver. so scared, so i just stood at a corner with jianan and celeste. after that we had some refreshments and wenty back to 32 classroom block. then we got scolded. they said we are not setting good examples and that we dont mix. they said we talk among ourselves and were not properly attired. but those noises were not made by us. they said when everyone was disappointed in us, they didnt give up hope. are we hopeless at all. it's that we have potential that are not yet shown. people just dont give us a chance. sigh..i think i'm the most useless girl in the squad. i think no matter how hard i try, i'll never suceed in whatever i do. amybe not now. i have no fate with people around me, but i'm not sad. i just accept whatever i'm given by destiny. i believe on day i'll suceed in life. am i not friendly? do i not look friendly? actually if you start to talk to me, i'll talk a lot also to you. it's just people dont want to strike the conversation first. i'm like that. and if you think i'm not friendly, dont get the wrong idea(: